I refused the symbolic order.
I was not interested in my female domestic story. I discovered that my I, HERE, NOW was never one, fixed point which I could catch in one image to be iterated with small variations over the next 50 years. Clearly that is a business model from tradition but not where I wanted to go.
I embraced the interdependence of nature and culture.
My quest for a model or paradigm in nature was for a living metaphor which would equate with my work process/philosophy.
I was addicted to displacing myself in order to grow.
In order to break with the codes and models of the art- of the past and particularly modernism, I required different strategies to engage my female experience and presence. Displacement was one of these strategies.
I asked "Why?" Discovering that phallic logic related to me, I began to disrupt it.
I worked from the premise that historical art making codes were gendered masculine, i.e. constructed from masculine desire.
I said , "We need new myths for our time", as I explored the body, matter and mind.
“Making it my own” wasn’t about having an eye for good design and/or a facility for selecting so much as it became embodied along with my understanding that a process was a metaphor for my living and philosophy- even a metaphor for our time.